No one and nothing is perfect. Some things may SEEM perfect
through our own eyes, but nothing really is. Well I am a perfectionist. Which
definitely gets difficult at times. Through my eyes, the Grand Canyon, waterfalls,
puppies, and pastel nail polish are just a few of the things that I consider to
be perfect. I am not perfect. Part of the reason my eating disorder began was
because of my perfectionism. I wanted so badly to be perfect. Have the perfect
hair, facial features, smile, clothes and personality. Unfortunately we don’t
have control over the result of most of these attributes. Genetics is
responsible for that. Well something I COULD control was my weight. I did have
control of my weight but the rest of my life was out of control! It is hard to
give up control. Well it’s a difficult task for me at least. I just want
everything to be perfect. Well last night I was able to let loose. For the
first time in a long time I did not even attempt at being perfect, and I had a
blast! My roommate came into my room at around 11pm and asked if I wanted to go
to the store with her really quick. I had already showered, had my acne facial
cream on, and my retainers in. I had a decision to make. Go along with her and
pick up a few essential things I needed or stay home. Normally I wouldn’t dare
go out in public after I already started getting ready for bed, but sometimes
when we step out of our comfort zone, wonderful things can happen. Last night a
wonderful thing happened. I let loose and didn’t take myself too seriously. It
was absolutely hilarious! I had an amazing night with many laughs and now even
more memories. I even captured a few of these crazy memories and have decided
to display them here on the Internet. Enjoy the picture before I suddenly realize
what I have done and then immediately take it down!
-jac
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